distance is trying to make me forget,

and when i first caught sight of it, it had to be the scariest thing

my heart had ever felt or let come to fester. but you make me so damn angry,

enemies are better than strangers huh? I never wanted you to be either, and life

is so fucking strange and like I said I just wanted to find the words to explain everything.

Without being cryptic because i have just read yours i'd like to say.

~ I am so angry at you....

I am so angry at life

I'll never hate you, but i have enough destain of situations to.

and it makes me so mad you see how much perfection you can actually be to those who are oblivious and have no idea of your integrity.

and my god i fucking miss you

and everything is telling me not to. especially the fact you had to get everything off of your chest, i have nothing to say i just want to run up to you and hug you, and if youd like it that way never speak again but you were something real and i fear for the entire mystery of what come next to actually happen.

i still have that string around my wrist,

i still have that necklace on my neck,

i fear to wear that ring so i keep it in my purse,

empador de las narajas hoy has tears in his eyes, and can't remember his smell.

and in all truth i just feel like crying

and you wouldn't know what goes on because i dont want to complain

i just fucking miss you with my whole heart, and wish that

my greatest accomplishment in life wasn't pushing everyone away,

you say you drop someone at the tip of the hat, but i dont even need that tip of the hat, i'm litterally scared of having anyone know me from this point on. i was never afraid of knowing you and now i just need you.

i'm so alone. please.... dont be just a dream you're real you're real.