http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bTgxLjFOrKo

I think I saw you in my sleep, lover, I think I saw you in my dreams you were
stitching up the seams on every mangled promise that you body couldn't keep.
I think I saw you in my sleep.

more than a lot like mewithoutyou,
but i do love it. lotta la dispute and mewithoutyou these days,

wait
one question
where the hell are you?

okay now that it's passed.

its the most beautiful week in the world, and i just got a few drops of rain on my windshield last night which i can't complain from dreaming of writing in the rain and you know it kind of hurt, writing in the rain, and you knowing every thought that came to my head, and coming into this strange kitchen just to tell me you knew what i just ate, and why things hurt, and then you gave me a hug. and then i woke up, and dreamt of you again. and probably a thousand times more.

thats the summarization thought you'd care more to hear it that day, but the other fair lady is walking around and i guess in her presence i'm sort of drown out and diluted like a really bad watercolor painting.

i dont mean to seem rude, and i'm not mad..
but i do always know when she's around or when things are good between you, because there is a lot less 'goodmorning' and a lot more 'sorry sorry'

but i'm not angry, because i'll always be around. so you don't have to apologize because i won't be having to give you any forgiveness.



i've been hanging out with everyone who i haven't seen in a million years, which would be my childhood... and i forget they have always known about everything in my life so when i wear my red hat they just look at me with approval and remember the 16 year old crazy girl by the lake smoking cigarettes and messing with everything. which makes me happy, because i feel loved in every way possible. and i got to see my friend john for the first time in forever, and he is my absolute other half, and always has been since 5th grade when he made fun of me, but since then hes been a superhero saving my life and not even meaning to, jellybeans, swingsets, reds, and pictures of feet. he's maaaa soulmate always has been. its just high time he gets a boyfriend lmfao.