Wednesday | February 06, 2008

alright, so the key to a great life, is imagining it?
right?
but what if i cant, does that mean ill falter through all of this?

i wish, i felt alive, i wish i felt like i had more to say.
but im just numb, and all i want is a ciggarette, and for you to stay.

i cant even begin to let you know, how sorry i truely am,
the stupidest part, is it could have stopped, before it began.

so now, you can color me blue, and get lost in the snow,
but i cant promise you, that i wont follow.

im never too far behind, even though my actions show less,
through all of this, i need to stop doing things, ill regret.

i want you to know, that i love you, both of you,
but in separate ways, is how id like to spend my days.

one as a friend, and one as a lover,
not confusing one with another.
tears, and the worst of lies,
im sorry you had to cry.

its not worth it to feel alone, cornered or afraid.
its my feelings, its my life, and.. when those are together,
comes me needing to tell you both the truth.
and not worrying who ill hurt, because id never want to hurt either of you.
but i did, and im sorry.