Saturday | October 27, 2007

and i do feel really lost,
and i feel like i have nothing.
everything that defined me is stripped from me now
through mistakes, through everything.
all i really want to do is not think about you,
or it, or us. or the fact that i dont happen to see any
familiar face very often these days. lifes changing like
the leaves of fall, i thought vibrant red was good..
but only when your at their house,
jumping in piles of leaves from the roof.
i have a hangover, but i did then too.
everything is off to simulataneously repeat the life i once had,
want to have, cant have. only in doses may i be torn apart
by sick nostalgia

and i miss you, i miss you so far.
i wish i could smile, and think what i did was right.
but i feel as if, im in this place for a reason, and im going to be
here quite a time. but i cant live with that.. or this.
or anything.

i lost you,
i feel like i lost her,
and i am unknown to everyone.


and you know what?
NO ONE gives a shit.